If my goal was mearly to get up at 6 this morning.  I failed.  I didn't get up at 6 when my alarm went off.  I layed there and thought about getting up.  Thought that I would just lay there for a minute until I felt a little better, and then get up.  Unfortunately, I fell asleep and woke up at 6:50.  So I got up.  I had coffee.  Read my book and prayed.  It was an awesome time.  It wasn't as early as I wanted it to be.  I don't want to say I'll try better tomorrow, because I know that I can do it, I just have to .. do it.  I just have to let God lead me and get up when he wants me to get up, not when my body feels like it.  Again, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  It's not about me and how I "feel".  It's about God and what He wants me to do!

So, despite not being up at 6, I had a great time!  God really met me this morning and showed me things that I hadn't thought of.  I was trying to make lists of things I need to pray for the girls.  Allergies is on the top of the list for all of them.  Even Rebecca, who hasn't shown any signes of allergies.  Brooklyn and Samantha didn't at her age either.  I know that God will answer my prayers for them.  And my fear is being relieved already.  I can already feel it.  God already showed me something to pray about that I hadn't even thought of.  I need to pray for Samantha's potty training.  I hadn't even thought of praying for that.. just keep plugging away and it will come.  I'm sure that it would.. but how much easier will it be when God is there helping me.  I also spent this time praying for Trevor.  I know that God has some great plans in mind for him and I want to be apart of seeing that come about. 

BTW I'm thinking about moving my blog and have already begun making a new one.  Once it's the way I like it I'll let you know and will officially move.

I'm trying to get my thoughts in order so I'm not all over the place.  It's hard for me. 

Yesterday was a really hard day for me, spiritually.  I know that I'm PMS'ing and I think I have another burst cyst on my ovary.  So I'm not feeling that well and I know that it's being used against me.  I was just so gripped in fear.  That happens every once-in-a-while.  I feel physically wrapped up in fear that I can't do any thing about it.  I pray and pray but it really feels like my prayers go unanswered.  Not until we got home did I feel any better.  The reason for the fear was Samantha.  She's allergic to peanuts, in case you didn't remember.  She got a hive on her hand and I was just constantly watching her in fear of her breaking out in them.  The home we were in is not a nut free home and I don't expect it to be.  But for some reason the enemy was using that against me and held me in fear.  On Saturday, we were at my in-laws.  My FIL kissed Samantha on the cheek and she got a hive.  He had eaten peanuts the night before.  If she's that sensitve, that really scares me. 

Ok, you might be thinking, so she got a hive, big deal.  You have to understand that my first experiences with hives was with my first daughter.  She started with hives and ended up puffing up like a balloon and having them all over her body.  That was after eating 2 cashews!  A horrible experience  for a mother. 

So, I decided to pick up my Power of a Praying Parent book.  I read the first chapter and was in tears for most of it.  I want to be that kind of mother.  I want to cover my children in prayer so that I know that every aspect of their lives is protected by God. 

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.  John 10:10

As I was reading, I felt a leading from God to wake up before my girls and pray for them and do my devotions.  If you know me, you'll know that not what I do.  I sleep until the very last possible minute that I can.  I like to stay up late, not wake up early.  I even felt I was given a time of 6am.  I want to be a woman who is willing to do anything God asks.  I don't want to follow my physical body's leading, I want to follow God's leading.  I make a public declaration.   As of tomorrow morning, I am waking up at 6 to spend time with God. 

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  Phillipians 4:13

Brooklyn had been complaining for about a week about a sore tooth so we decided she should go see the dentist.  She stop complaining a week before but we went anyway.  She did so good.  They all commented on how well she did for a 4 year old.  She had her teeth cleaned and they took x-rays.  No Cavities!  PTL!!  The dentist figured that she probably had something stuck between her teeth.  She got all these treats and she was so proud.  And I was so proud of her.  Daddy told her if she did everything the dentist said that she would get a bike so he put it together when we got home.  She was so happy.  I really hope that Samantha will be that easy when we have to take her, but I know she won't be. 

Samantha insisted on wearing a dress today.  Which is something she has never done before.  But she looks so cute!  Now Brooklyn wants to wear a dress too, which is fine because Grandma and Grandpa are coming today and the girls can look cute for them. 

Ok!  I've made up my mind on this about 5 times and every time it has been different so obviously I need some help.  We are having a dedication for Rebecca on the 18th.  When we dedicated Brooklyn, my MIL had everyone over to her house.  Great!  For Samantha we had a thing at the church where she was dedicated.  This time I just don't know what to do.  I feel obligated to do something.  The best idea I think would be to have everyone go to a buffet and celebrate there.  But, I have a problem with taking Brooklyn and Samantha to a buffet when I don't know what's in the food their eating.  Unless we just keep it simple for them and give them buns and fruit and veggies.  That would probably be the best idea.  Well, now I feel like I made up my mind while writing and don't really need help.  So, thanks for listening, you're a great listener and you always wait until I finished to comment!  Thanks! 

Samantha had her allergy testing this week.  It was only by the grace of God that she was able to get in already because her appointment wasn't until June and they called Monday and ask if we could come on Tuesday.  So awesome! 

She did really well considering what they had to do.  It wasn't nearly as kid friendly as when Brooklyn went, but she did so well.  Of course when I had to hold her arm so the liquids wouldn't mix and it started getting itchy she cried and struggled.  But when it was done she got a sucker and was happy.   Samantha is allergic to peanuts, and other nuts, tomatoes, feathers, and dust mites.  So, we've been going through the girls room cleaning out everything and making sure everything is totally clean.  Like their stuffed animals and mattresses and such.  I wasn't dealing with the whole peanut thing very well on Tuesday.  But Wednesday I was feeling much better.  Today, I was reading a blog I've started reading and her little girl woke up with hives all over her.  For a reason that the mother cannot figure out.  Seeing that just made me so thankful that we know what our girls are allergic to and the most severe ones are from eating.  So, that makes it a lot more simple than if it's environmental. 

Also, in regards to this, but sort of a different subject.  I've let the church office and head of childrens ministries know about our girls allergies and also that their are other children in the church with nut allergies and I've suggested that we make our church a "nut free" church.  It sounds like the people I've mentioned it too liked the idea and will run with it, so if you feel like praying for something it would be that the church will go with this and the idea will be widely respected. 

It really simplifies things since I'm going to homeschool them since we won't have to worry about them having reactions at school.  And also sending Epipens to school with them.  Since they both now have to carry Epipens.  My prayer is that they will all grow out their allergies.  I know that it happens and that it's rare, but I know that my God is a God of miracles.  So, there ya go.